I always try to avoid sad movies, especially sad movies that are based on true stories. They give me depression.
Can You Ever Forgive Me? is one of those movies. Every character in this story is sad–a desperate middle-aged female writer, her gay friend who’s single and has AIDS and her old cat that’s dying.
Usually a movie with this type of set up is definitely on my no-watch list, but I couldn’t resist Can You Ever Forgive Me? for two reasons:
1. The timing of when I found this movie was just right. I was so stressed out from prepping for all the finals while trying to find a job, and needed to watch some other losers struggling with their life too so I know I’m not alone.
2. The main character is played by Melissa McCarthy! So how sad can it be? If she’s in the movie then this is gotta be a comedy in some way.
And then I felt so sorry for my misperception about Melissa McCarthy. It turns out she not only can make me laugh, she can make me cry as hard.

The year is 1992. Lee Israel (played by Melissa McCarthy) is an author of a few best-selling books. Unfortunately, her latest biography of the cosmetic tycoon Estee Lauder became a commercial failure because Lauder herself also published her own memoir that outsold Israel’s version.
This incident, plus Israel’s antisocial personality and alcoholism, led to the end of her career. Struggling to pay bills, she found a shortcut to easy money–forging famous people’s personal letters, and selling them to collectors. Many of the letters she forged are apologies, which usually end with “Can you ever forgive me?”

(One of the letters Israel forged)
Israel has forged over 400 personal letters, and made over thousands of dollars from them. But despite the huge crime she committed, the public understood and sympathized her. Even the judge didn’t give her bar times. Why is that?
Because people resonated with her. There are countless talented writers who are fully committed to words and are not good at self-promoting. They don’t know how to publicize themselves or exaggerate their achievements, so they have to keep struggling until they become obsolete. And the people they are losing to are the braggers who prioritize building a name for themselves over actual writing. Like Israel’s publisher said to her, no one will buy books from an author they’ve never seen in TV, or heard of in radio.
And I’m guilty of that too. Many times when I pick up a book from a bookstore, I see if I recognize the author first, before I try to figure out what the book is about. And if the book is either written by a famous author, or endorsed by other famous people, I’ll put it down.
With readers like me…and collectors who are willing to pay hundreds for one piece of letter of someone well-known, no wonder writers are chasing after fame. And Israel eventually realized that. She wrote the book Can You Ever Forgive Me? based on her crime history, then became rich and famous. Ironic, but that’s life. No publicity is bad publicity. As I live more I believe it more.

(The real Lee Israel. She’s really bad-ass looking)
Life lessons aside, I want to talk about Melissa McCarthy. I was very familiar with her, and have watched so many of her movies, but I wouldn’t say I was a big fan. One reason is that her roles are very much the same–funny, goofy, energetic, always make people laugh their ass off while screaming “omg I love her!”

(Melissa in Spy)

(in Life of The Party)

(in Tammy)
Whenever I think of Melissa McCarthy, I feel like it’s almost inaccurate to call her “Melissa the actress,” it should be specifically “Melissa the comedian.” Because she’s so successful as a comedian, to a point that having her in the cast list becomes quality assurance for a comedy. But also because of that, I can’t imagine her starring in any other genres. I thought she just can’t be serious.
Until Can You Ever Forgive Me? showed me she can, and she’s good.

(A quote from Lee Israel, regarding her literary forgery charge)
It was almost embarrassing that I walked into a theatre prepared to be amused by Melissa McCarthy, but ended up weeping over her scenes. When she lost her cat, when she pled guilty in front of the judge, when she reconciled with her gay friend and tried not to cry over his illness…I never knew watching Melissa McCarthy can be heart-breaking.
And that made me a believer of Melissa McCarthy, the actress.
For anyone who wants to see a serious Melissa, and for anyone who live alone with cats, I recommend this movie to you.







(A review of her look. This is totally meme-ready. )
Twins right?? Lol

(Hollywood star Olivia Munn dressed as Awkwafina’s role in Crazy Rich Asian for Halloween)

So that’s your 32-year old face. Good for you John.
it’s her!!
(watching the movie is like looking through your own laptop, fun!)